I caved in. I got the macbook pro. It was just too shiny and that gorgeous display was beckoning me to take out my wallet and pay up. haha. I was angry at myself for a day or two for purchasing it, knowing full well that I need to save money. But i figure its a good investment, and that the returns on it will be great. (caveat: i did have the money to pay for the laptop in cash, so I will not have to be in debt. thank you parents and grandparents) 

Christmas has come and gone, as mentioned in the previous blog posting, and now has new years. Time passes by so quickly at the parents house. I try my bestest to get any work that I can foresee out of the way, and yet, nothing ever gets done. This place drains all my work ethic out of me. Which might not actually be a bad thing. I need to rest. I’ve been in a constant state of do-do-do, and not getting enough of don’t-don’t-don’t. So this time has been incredibly healthy for me. 

As mentioned on twitter ( http://www.twitter.com/mrkevanlin ) my new years resolutions include the following: 

1. 8 min abs
2. find job
3. learn to budget money
4. let love flourish

as Holly likes to point out “how come love has to come after your abs?” With great abs comes great love. Or at least this mind thinks so. I do need to be more attentive to what goes in and out of my system these days (that metabolism is slowing down) and it’ll be good for me to start eating more healthy too. point 2 and 3 go hand in hand, but resolution number 4 needs explanation. Let me try to translate my brain activity into the English language, here goes.

Letting love flourish, or allowing love to take its course is the basic idea behind the resolution. More specifically, it’s to allow God the reigns in my relationship with Holly. He can steer our conversations, how we spend our time, controls our every interaction. When I’ve got a Guy like God handling my business, how can I go wrong? Letting go is the hardest part of it all. I want to take this relationship into my hands, establish our relationship “laws” and making sure that we adhere to them. And as always, I never live up to the rules. Instead of seeing it from the perspective of “I’m following all of these rules because I think this is what is best” it would be much better to see it like this “I’m following all of these rules because God  would be pleased with my worship to Him.” It’s a state of worship that fuels the desire to play by the “rules”. 

so yeah, like all new years resolutions, you see how long it takes for them to fizzle and die. 8 min abs I can do without, but living life without the intentionality of worshipping God with Holly, fat chance. Welcome to the oh-nine friends :)